The main reason is I had an idea that I liked. But usually, in these past few years, when I have an idea that I like, I simply hope that someone else will write it.
It's a feeling of wanting to read a book about a certain subject, but thinking it's not available (as far as you know).
I didn't plan to write the book.
But then there's a feeling I've been trying to suppress the past few years. It's the feeling of worthlessness and inadequacy because I don't make any of my own money.
Well, I get about five dollars a year from one of my previous novels that I self-published. But I don't count that, because in those long ago days, I had to pay a fairly high price for publishing it. So it's not like I made a profit.
Anyway, it's unlikely I'll become wealthy from writing my novel, but I can't deny having fantasies. Still though, if I can make at least $100, I'll feel some satisfaction. I mean $100 within a year...not through out my lifetime. Or maybe 2-3 years is fine.
Writing is a hard way to make money, but in some ways it's the more feasible option for me personally. I have a huge gap in my resume. I don't think I'm qualified for much anymore.
I don't drive, so it would be hard for me to get places.
So in summary, I wrote a novel for two reasons. I had an idea that I liked and I'm hoping to make some money.
I suppose also that I would like...not fame, really. But respect? Praise? Attention?
The problem is if you write a novel, no matter how successful it is, you're going to invite in criticism and maybe hatred as well. So that probably cancels out any praise and positive attention I might receive.
For that reason, it's probably best to put more concentration on the money and joy-of-writing aspects of it all.
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